It's Christmas Time!

____ [fill in the blank] ____

And I swear I'll pull you from the clay,
where the motes of dust drift down.
Just grab my bony wrist.

Amish

I want to be a man of the earth, a man of hard work in what he cares for, a man of God, and a man of an open mind. A man of experience and of love, lost and gained.

I love you Pennsylvania.

Easy to Forget When You Have a Microwave

But the world is just so much bigger than me. It annoys me to no end that I have to forget this fact in order to do anything grind-related, like finish homework or deal with money issues. I keep telling myself that right now, my world needs to be small so I can have the best possible position to fulfill myself in the future. And by fulfilling myself, I mean fulfilling what I want for myself. And by that, I mean largely to fulfill others and experience great things.

Gotta kiss ass and just roll with it for a bit. After all, I'm not anywhere close to knowing enough to think that I would know the best direction for my life right now anyway.

I wonder what I'll think in a few years of this approach.

What eats me is that in college, self-centeredness is a virtue, and almost a necessity.