2 minutes and 43 seconds of musing

Bugs
Countless little pests
Obstruct my vision
but really
am I one of the few that can see?
or am I wrong
I know i am selfish and petty
just as prone as them
to fall into the canyon
dark and deep
(the scenery is at the top)
can these small things hurt me
if i pretend they dont exist
ignorance
may be bliss
but I don't want bliss.
I want the pangs of life
the roughness of the gem
but really
I only want the kind of pain I want
does that make me a hypocrite?
an opportunist?
selfish?
yeah.
But really i feel my motivation is different
maybe i'm just justifying it
acquitting the murderer...
but is that so wrong?
I don't know.
Maybe I'm lying to myself.
I lied about the title...
it was 2 minutes and 44 seconds.