Midpoint New Years

say more of what's on my mind.
try harder to fulfill what it means to love- people, life, god, me, girl.



I feel tonight as if two phases of my life have just come crashing together in a most excellent way, not without some muffled pain in the offering.

Late night movie with a father who I have barely spoken to my entire life, but have somehow spent two days in a shadow of harmony with. Star Trek. Only crazy people accomplish anything, and they gotta fight through the bars of many cages to get there. eat shit, academia.
Longest piss of my life, leave the theater.
Quiet-running car driven by Julian himself is waiting. Sirius Radio. Yellow acoustic, backporch uncut. Laughing in background of song. Starry night over the desert, expanding in every direction. I am in new mexico, and I am still connected. Tears come to my eyes.

and you're skin and bones...

I feel you all. imperfection.
turned in... to something beautiful...

my, my, what the future holds.

for you i'd bleed myself dry...




Because I love you so.



like late-night strawberry jam in a fresh-made flour tortilla.

Memoirs of a Geisha

I just finished watching it. Everyone else fell asleep. Lots of thoughts through my head abut myself, but let's explore the general picture briefly...
I think it's terrible to have such a culture based on materialism and outward appearance, where virginity is even auctioned off... however, I find it fascinating that this seems to be a cultural reaction to the wonderful intricacies that is the female allure, the dance of sexuality between people, and the inability to ever fully grasp aesthetics.
...her lovely face is hidden behind a mask, as she slowly allows the hopes in her heart to fall away like leaves...
...then finds that love is real, rather than giving up.

"Color Test"

There is a major thread here that is pretty much off, I think, but you be the judge of that... then again, I wouldn't know... but it interests me enough to post it, though I think it may be just vague enough to apply anytime, like a horoscope.

Alejandro took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Lives life to the fullest. Has a high energy leve..." Click here to read the rest of the results.